Catching up

Ok so this is the first time I've had a chance to get online since Logan was born. On Thursday 3/13 around 1:30 am my water broke, luckily I was in the bathroom when it happened. I went downstairs to find Mike-e playing video games. I asked why he wasn't sleeping and he said he was just really restless and couldn't sleep. Guess he knew what was coming. I told him my water broke and asked him to call the hospital while I took a shower. After my shower we got everything we needed and started to drive down there. The whole drive seemed really unreal like at any moment I would wake up. I couldn't feel any contractions so other than my water breaking it didn't feel like I was in labor at all. We got to the hospital and they confirmed that my water had indeed broke and moved me into a labor and delivery room. The room was really nice and big. Moments later the doctor came in to see how dilated I was and found I was only 1 cm. They hooked me to the monitors and told me that I was having regular contractions so they would check back at 7:30 to see if I had made progress. It was weird that I was having contractions because I couldn't feel them at all. At 7:30 no knew progress so I was started on Pitocin which I've heard from everyone else that it jumps starts labor and suddenly you are having major contractions. Mine still weren't bad at all and I was never even put on drugs. After a couple hours of this and nothing changing they removed the outer monitor and put in an internal one so see the intensity of the contractions. From this point on it was a real pain in the butt to get out of bed and I wasn't allowed to walked around. They could see though that my contractions were just mild. At 5:00 the doctor came in and said they were considering a c-section but the doctor on duty for the night was coming in and they were going to discuss with him. Later that doctor came in and asked my opinion. I told him since there was no knew progress we should do the c-section. My family has a history of not dilating and I didn't want to wait around for another 6-7 hours just to have them do the c-section. I was then prep and moved into the operation room. Mike-e got to be with me and hold my hand. They gave me a spinal which means I couldn't feel anything from the chest down. It's a really weird feeling not know if people are touching you. I didn't even know they had started the procedure until they asked Mike-e if he wanted to watch them pull Logan out. Logan came out and cried right away. It's an amazing sound and makes you feel so good to know that your baby which you been carrying and worrying about for the last 10 months is ok. Both Mike-e and I just cried and then Mike-e left to go look at him. They brought him over to me and he was just so beautiful. They finished with me and then moved me to the post op room where my family was allowed to come in 2 at a time and see him. I was shivering like crazy from the drugs and from being cold and still couldn't feel most of my body. The baby was tested and given a bath which my inlaws have probably a million pictures of and Mike-e took a video of since I couldn't watch. From there we were moved to our hospital room which we would be in for 3 nights. I got to really hold Logan at that point and it was just so great. For the 4 days we were there everyone was really nice. I wasn't allowed to eat solid food until mid-day on Friday which was hard because I was so hungry. We had some problems with the breast feeding to begin with so every day a Lactation specialist would come in and see how I was doing. On Sunday before we left they said that Logan had lost more weight than they would like and told me that I would have to supplement if it didn't improve. That was really hard to hear because it's hard not to feel like you are doing something wrong even though everyone tells you that you aren't. She recommend that I feed him more often, every two hours and said things would improve once my milk came in. They then asked if I was sure I didn't want to stay one more night in the hospital. I was so sick of just being in that room and not really having any where to walk around to that I said I was sure and we were discharged. I put Logan in his going home outfit and he was so cute even though it was a little big. We got home and it was just so nice, the dogs were a little annoying but what can you expect. Since we've been home things have gone pretty well. We've still had our ups and downs with the breast feeding and there are times when I just feel really crappy from the incision and m legs being swollen. Our family has been really nice and supportive which has helped a lot. Mike-s is a really good dad. He takes really good care of me and Logan and makes sure I get sleep since I have to feed Logan every 2 hours. I love having Logan and just holding him while he looks up with his curious expressions.

Mother's Blessing

I am writing this for Logan for when he gets older. I'm writing this on November 23rd but I've backdated it to the day of Logan's birth so when he reads his blog it's at the beginning. I was thinking about how crazy the world can be and how difficult good choices can be to make and I decided I wanted to write out my own blessing for Logan, so here it is....

Logan I bless you with an open mind and a loving heart. As you get older I hope that you will listen to others with understanding and compassion. You will understand that everyone is different but that God loves us all. You will accept others for who they are and strive to help them when they are in trouble or in pain. You will remain calm in stressful situations and think about solutions to issues. I hope that as we raise you that we will teach you about the beauty of life. That we'll show you the love that you deserve and add laughter to your life. Your father and I love you with all of hearts and wish only the best for you. We hope that you make good decisions but will love you even when you choose the wrong ones. We hope that you will always feel like you can talk to us about anything and know that we will listen and guide you appropriately. I know you will be strong and will handle any obstacle that comes your way. You can do anything that you put your mind and heart into. I love you so much, Logan.

So we went to the doctor today and we are scheduled to be induced on March 18th at 6 am. Today they checked the baby to make sure he responded well to stress and had enough ambiotic fluid left. He has lots of fluid left so they said he is probably really comfortable and probably not ready to come out. He moved lots when they were doing the ultrasound and it's weird how big he is. Then when they went to do the stress test he decided he didn't want to move any more,which for is typical Logan. Every time I try to get him to move for someone else to feel he always stops. It's almost like a big game to him. They have this vibrator devise that they put on his head that got him really going so they could watch his heart react and he did really well. I even had 2 contractions while they were watching, which I didn't feel by the way, and he handled them great. Overall they said he is a healthy baby just content to have me carry him around. It was nice to hear that he is doing good and to actually have a date as to when we'll get to hold him.

Still no baby

So just an update for all those people who are watching this closely for news: We still do not have Logan yet. I called the doctor today and what I thought were contractions were just stomach cramps. I haven't had any contractions today at all so it looks like we are going be discussing being induced at our appointment on Wednesday. Today we walked to the Library to see if we could get things going. It was very tiring and since Logan is sitting so low I can't walk very fast. It was nice to get out and spend some quality time with Mike-e just discussing things. I have to admit that I'm feeling a little frustrated because of some up coming events. My dad is leaving on Thursday for Utah and will be coming back Friday night. My grandma, aunt, uncle and cousin are flying in on Friday to see my sister who came back from Australia on Saturday. Mike-e parents are going up to Estes on Thursday for the weekend. Just seems like a lot is going on and who knows when Logan will be here. It's nice that my sister is home. She's been gone for about a year and a half and she was very excited to see me pregnant. She says I'm a very cute pregnant person, which is nice of her to say since at this point I don't feel cute at all. It's really nice have her home, almost feels like she never left. Well that's all I have to update right now. Next update will probably be after our doctor appointment this Wednesday.

Nothing happening yet

So we went to the doctor today and I'm still not dilated. The baby is in position though so apparently Logan is ready I'm just not. She said that next week if I still didn't have him yet than they would discuss dates for me to be induced. It looks like Brittany will be home in time for the birth. Hopefully the baby will come the beginning of next week though so I won't have to be induced. I'm totally going for the drugs though no matter if they induce or I just go into labor.